Memories

I’ve been listening on Audible to some great books written by sober authors. The latest one is “Quit Like a Woman” by Holly Whitaker. She is a true Badass! Holly details the unique struggle women have due to our history of oppression, misogyny, discrimination, condescension, the trials, challenges and suffering from living in a white

Sober Healing

For many of us, drinking booze has been a way to avoid feeling the intensity of the wounds, traumas, scars, hurts, and pain we endured throughout our lives. When we are triggered by the stress of the day, something someone may have said or done, perhaps the feeling of overwhelm, we drink alcohol so we

Pandemic and Addiction

Today I want to share this enlightening article. My addiction to alcohol climbed to a dangerous level during the pandemic, resulting in debilitating anxiety and depression. I KNOW I am not alone. Are you drinking more since March? https://www.google.com/amp/s/www.nytimes.com/2020/05/26/health/coronavirus-alcohol-addiction.amp.html

Ninety One Days

Today is Day 91 Alcohol Free. Ninety One days of saying NO 100% to The Booze Bitch. All those days ago, I hadn’t any idea what was in store for me, what lay ahead. I had no idea I would feel this overflow of joy, bursting with pride, the complete regaining of trust in myself,

The wake up call

My days feel almost magical lately, especially my mornings. I bliss out during my sacred time, and that powerful energy stays with me throughout the day. My energy is strong, but at the end of my work days at the winery, 9 hour days filled with nearly 5 miles of back and forth steps and

Remembering Dad

Whenever I find myself on a deeply introspective healing journey, memories of my father always surface. I lost my dad when I was just a teenager. I didn’t grieve to the extent I needed to grieve. I didn’t acknowledge the enormous impact losing him had on my development, on my entire life from age 16

Relationship

I was pondering this morning a memory of something I had shared, that surprised me, with a couple of very close friends. What I had shared was the realization that I would be willing to give up (forever!) drinking alcohol for a man I dearly love, if he were to choose to give up booze,

The Struggle

Day 37 Alcohol Free. I did not realize the extent of the sense of loss and grief/ discomfort I would experience throughout this alcohol free journey. I had not yet learned that letting go of a steady (albeit highly dysfunctional) companion would feel so odd. Not just hard, not just sad, nor merely lonely- but

The Breakup

…a letter to my “Ex” Dear Alcohol, Over three decades of loyalty to you and now I see those years were filled with lies, deception, grief and despair. You came wrapped in pretty packaging, The Temptress. I thought being a wine connoisseur and so steeped in your culture and romance meant I could enjoy you