Day 382 Alcohol Free, I am floating in the ineffable JOY of my life these days.
Here I sit, reflecting on this past year-plus with its many unexpected twists and turns, with the myriad of challenges and struggles, a mix of excruciatingly painful days and nights and episodes of explosive joy, plenty of solitude (more than I ever wished for), immersion with The Divine no matter what, celebration and happiness beyond my imaginings, my dream life unfolding.
I believe the true key to success in making a major life change is trust, trust with a capital “T”, and commitment, with a capital “C”. I made the powerful and courageous decision to bring my life fully in alignment with my values of impeccability and authenticity, something I had wanted to be brave enough to do for a very long time. Since the day I decided booze would no longer fit inside the vision I had of “Ideal /Best ME”, everything has transformed. My life is bright and shiny and although I still have tough times, still get angry and self righteous at times, still do things I want to smack myself upside the head for doing, I am happier than I have ever been. It all started with the decision to say “F You!” to The Booze Bitch.
Now as I look over my Fiercely Sober life and write my seventieth blog post(!), I feel filled to the brim with gratitude and awe. My life is a fountain, soaring with goodness in all directions. Yesterday, Today, and Tomorrow are full of purpose. I did the HARD stuff! I can do lots more HARD stuff. I trust myself completely now, I proved myself reliable and worthy of my trust. I believe with all my heart we live in a loving, benevolent Universe, and I receive validation of that constantly. I believe Karma is REAL. I believe so many things we obsess over are petty and insignificant, and letting go feels amazing. I have no interest in drama or being with toxic people. I am not here to argue that my opinion is more right than anyone else’s. I
want to inspire, to heal, to never stop growing and learning. I love my life and I know how immensely blessed I am, I revel in the tenderness of all the love I feel. I wish for every creature, human and other, to live their very best life. Somehow I got to win the grand prize, the biggest treasure there is, a life of meaning, and purpose, and joy. I stand strong and tall. I give thanks for all I have endured, all I am fortunate enough to receive. I am resilient. I am madly in love with Mother Nature. I forgive easily. I love ferociously. I am one very lucky Active Chick.